Dear Lil P,
I sit here typing this post and my heart is already bursting with SO much love for you! Thank you first and foremost God for blessing me with this incredible gift and to all the 11:11’s, lucky pennies, and wishing upon the stars. Lil P, I can’t wait to be your mom!
I am beyond grateful to say I’M PREGNANT! As I know it is a journey that while it brings so much joy to some, it also brings pain and sorrow. I cannot fully understand the extreme struggle that some women have gone through but I will continue to pray that God walks along side you.
As some of you know, I am an only child even though Bianca is my sister of the heart. I was always worried that I would have trouble TTC just like my mom had. The fear, the anxiety, the negative thoughts -especially when it’s all you’ve ever wanted, started to consume me. I truly needed to learn to strengthen my faith and put my trust in God’s plan for me. When I found out I was first pregnant I promised both myself and this little babe growing inside me that I would do my very best to enjoy this precious time and not let the fear and unknown steal my joy.
I have been pregnant for a little while now but I am excited and finally ready to share the news with all of you! On July 21st, 2018, Andrew and I had the most magical day of our lives – read all about our Wedding Day here! We decided that we wanted to wait a little before starting a family – as this was our first time living together, and wanted to enjoy some time just us two. We started trying last summer and while the COVID-19 Pandemic weighted our nerves during this process, we found out we were pregnant at the end of September! Andrew could tell that I was always nervous especially in the beginning and his extreme optimism is something I admire deeply about him. He has been an incredible partner through out this journey and my heart is already exploding at the thought of seeing him hold our baby for the first time. Andrew, if you’re reading this … Lil P is so lucky to have your as his/her dad and we both love you so much!
The day I found out I was pregnant I was in complete shock- I couldn’t believe it, I finally could see those two pink lines on the test that I have been so impatiently waiting for! For those who know me, know I am the WORST at keeping good secrets. If you tell me a secret in confident I will take it to the grave, but good secrets like pregnancies and engagements secrets, well those are just too good to keep! With all that being said, I waited a whole 24 hours before I told Andrew… and not much longer to share with my closest family and girlfriends!
Sharing the news is a surprise in itself, but I live for a cute announcement. Stay tuned to see how I shared the exciting news of my little babe with the people I love – video coming soon!
In the mean time, thank you for all your kind words & well wishes as you join me on this journey to welcoming Lil P!